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Saturday, 05 July 2008

  • Family

    Okay, so has anyone ever felt like they don't fit into their family?

    I have, after today, I realized theres no way in hell I fit into either side of my family, I fit in with my parents, at times, when we are not fighting, but when it comes to extended family on both sides, where do I fit in, no where, first everyone is either older than I am (at least 3or more years) or much younger  ( 3 or more) so I'm basically the only on each side my age. The topics either family decides to discuss and its usually something they no nothing about, so pure ignorance. I just don't get it. At times I wonder if its not because I act like I'm better than them or what, but that can't be, maybe I've just grown a lot and stuff they involve themselves in or discuss are not important to me, or never were, I just can't stand to talk about something I know nothing about and try to make myself look like I know it all.

    Maybe it's just me, maybe this happens to other families, I have no idea.

Friday, 16 May 2008

  • Psychology Paper

    So, I sit here.
    My topic for my next psychology paper is a topic we get to pick ourself from the unit.
    I'm thinking about picking Erikson's stage on intimacy versus isolation, which for those who have no idea what that is, its a stage at the young adult age when one must find a life partner whom he or she can spend the rest of their life with. What a strange topic to pick, given the fact that I can't keep a relationship very long because something always goes terribly wrong. Or I find myself scared because I don't want to seem vulnerable to the guy. And at my age, this stage fits the crisis. Why is this such a crisis according to Erikson? Well if you didn't achieve the stage before it, which happens to be identity vs role confusion, then it would be incapable to reach intimacy, which comes into the complicatedness ( yes I made it up, I'm allowed) that boys and girls seem to find within each other. Girls, intimacy is bound with self-disclosure, which is all the personal stuff. Well girls find that being with a guy who doesn't revel much, say the relationship lacks intimacy but for boys, its the opposite, they find the relationship to be fine and don't see sharing the personal stuff an essential to intimacy.

    hmm, so basically, I just rambled. My paper topic is really what I said it was. I just felt like going into a ramble about nothing.

Monday, 12 May 2008

  • New Beginning...

    So I was bored this past week and decided to go through and read old entries and I realized, I'm a dork. I was a dork in highschool and a dork now, but I'm okay with that. As I was clicking delete on all of the entries, I realized life would be very easy if all you had to do was click delete on things in life you didn't want to remember or didn't want to happen. There are many things I would love to just hit DELETE and have it never occur.

    I may or may not type anything on here and I haven't for a really long time, I would just get on here at times just to read other people blogs and see how their life is going.

    Well heres the scoop on me.

    I'm currently ending my sophomore year of college. I attend Washington State Community College, or what I would like to call Hell. I can't stand it what so ever. I'm not doing well in school, I'm not going to lie, and it's not because I'm smart, I am, when something is boring or miserable I tend not to do well, so i let it affect me greatly, but in 4 weeks I will be done with WSCC for good and be attending Marietta College, which yes I finally decided where I was going. I was suppose to be attending Franciscan University of Steubenville, but Marietta offered me more money, plus it would be easier to stay here, save up money and then attend there for grad school. Which speaking about money brings up the topic of job. I spent almost two years of my life at Applebee's as a hostess, probably the two most miserble years ever. That place was my second Hell. True I had many good times and enjoyed working with certain people, but overall the place sucked, I never got to do anything, didn't have a social life, never had time for school. Well as of March, I was hired by the YMCA to work for their Kids Company Program, which I love. I work at Washington in the morning, then work at Phillips in the evening and have weekends off. My major is still Psychology, but now my minor is Religion/ Youth Ministry. Weird combo I know, but I'm very close to my faith, well I guess I should say I'm very into my faith, and I currently help with my church's youth group. Other than that, life has be dull and hetic at the same time, I've had quite a few failed relationships which makes me want to take a break for any relationships for awhile. I just need time to figure out who is in the wrong, was it me, or them, many people I've talked to said it was the boy.

    that's about it.

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